TWO POEMS by CASEY LAW
Out of the Deep
Rain came crashing down on the lid of her white Honda
Like missiles shot from heaven
Like tiny fallen angels, blessing my vision
Blue eyes lighten in holy oblivion
Watching stars fall is our tradition
I couldn’t hear her breathe
Nor her broken radio's broken hum
Though I felt her palm slip into mine
Pale and fragile skin turned numb
I couldn’t think
Wood, hollow
Allowing her thoughts to consume me
Her skin embeds mine
She’s the one
Pull me out of the deep, my friend
Reach through my skin, alter my core
For I worship your sincerity
And I had no one to admire before
I’ll avoid the mirrors
I’ll allow your hands to slowly drift up my skirt
Your fingertips grip my skin and my mouth opens wide
If only to be given something to gnaw on to let silence fill the room
To fill my mouth with pleasure and your thumb allowing my tongue to hide
For if I were to let out a sound my bed tonight shall be a tomb
So I set out for sea on a silent and romantic ride
Oh hold me
Tighter
Closer
harder
Until all I feel is the warmth making its way from your hands to my thighs
And the pain that resonates hidden within me
Isn’t visible to the human eye
I wouldn’t mind if you made me cry
If you allowed the words that roll off your tongue to torment and torture me
Until my eyes leak
And I feel as though my under eyes are peeling
Being ruined is such a wonderful feeling
Pull me
In by the waist to meet your lips
Oh the taste of you is filled with sweet serendipity
And holding your face in the soft parts of my palms
Is what keeps my eyelids from slowly drifting to meet each other when day comes to
end
I could never call you a friend
Even if we part ways and pretend that our days together
Weren’t worth all that missing
And that we wasted time
In movies left unfinished
With your hand on my thigh
Infinitely kissing
Truly
Content
When I think of you
And my eyes blur to our vision
My skin feels of ecstasy
and shivers coated in stutters
Your arms wrapping around me shake with each and every shutter
I cry and yelp in pain of how you put me through it all
And finally
Oh so suddenly
Tears begin to fall
You turn my eyes to puddles
how hard it is to see your face through water
Should you be able to see your reflection when looking into the salt water that you give
permission to dance down my cheeks
Though my tears dripping down your lips is the greatest
How does it feel to be a sadist?
Dousing your words in power and all you hold against me
At any moment
In any second
I could feel your sharp pains run down my body
At any moment
Any second
I could be saying sorry
My ears flood with your words
And my body floods with it
“You’re doing so well”
If it’s that easy to tell
I’m trying so hard
I struggle and fight and kick at the absolute idea that I ought to be refused
My rebuttal ought to be returned with the sound of slaps that echo in my hallways
If only everyone can hear
How good you make me feel
But I can’t bear
The idea of you putting me in my place
I can’t bear
In a snap you can change my face
Make my eyes widen
And my lips lie parted
My pupils dilate and beam
Blush floods my cheeks in a stream
And my eyebrows curl up
Leaving me completely and utterly
Wordless
So
If we both wish to do this again
Both wish to feel faint on a Friday
I’d say
Leave me shaking in tears
I’ll just make sure
That whatever I do
I’ll avoid all of the mirrors
Casey Law is a female poet who was born and currently resides in New Jersey. She has published a teenage mental health poetry book and has upcoming work in Poetry Nation, GENCONTROLZ, and Write Now Lit.